My Fables

2010-12-20T03:55:00.000-08:00

LOVE KEEPS US KIND!
And
Everyone
Think First.

2010-09-11T06:57:00.000-07:00

~The End~

2010-08-12T18:59:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday "L"!
Enjoy Happy 18th~

Summary for 2 weeks:
MICROECONOMICS
MARKETING MANAGEMENT
Dreams: Hungry Ghost Festival special; Lost wallet, Stole to get back; AND MANY MORE!
WGM: KHUNTORIA!!!!
Sudoku
Strong Heart
ZHANG YUN JING!
Tekken
TMNT
TOM & JERRY
Kan Mi Yeon
Roti Prata

FRIDAY THE 13TH!
[This post is posted on 13th Aug, Friday: Something is wrong with blogger]

2010-08-05T21:59:00.001-07:00

THANKS ALOT!
LORRENE LEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Dont forget to enjoy on 13 Aug!

*Picture speaks a thousand wordsssssssssss*

I SWEAR I WILL NEVER TRY TO SAVE 200 PICTURES FROM FACEBOOK AGAIN!

2010-08-01T06:17:00.000-07:00

Digital bounce ~
Digital sound ~
Digital X ~
Welcome to digital world ~

What a day.
Went to grandma house,
Found out something.
It seems like my cousin was the one who hacked my maple account.
He was trying to impressed me with the way he control his character.
Click here click there,
Click to inventory,
I SAW A WEAPON THAT HE ASKED ME TO BUY SOME TIME BACK!
I see..
Disappointed..
Such pretence..
Given up.
Went out with mum, aunt and sis.
Another screwed up process.
Went back grandma's for dinner.
My grandma kept asking me to cut my hair..
And my grandfather mistooked me as my other cousin.
Whaaat a day,
At least i bought my FROOT LOOPS!
KEKEKE!!
1 month of endurance,
Just 1 month.
Goodbye~

I lost My self,
its ME to get back whats MINE.

2010-07-31T05:36:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn ~
Well that's alright because i like the way it hurts ~

Woke up,
Got to go to the Nirvana Memorial columbarium in Old Choa Chu Kang,
Wow, i just did some research
S'pore's 6 star columbarium!
http://forums.sgclub.com/singapore/six_star_columbarium_185737.html
But before going there,
Went to Upp. Thomson's Hans for brunch,
Off to this Holy place.
GOSH!
Its super super high class,
Looks like a hotel, but of course for the deceased.
No wonder 6 star,
They got still different type of niches,
Got one is super class,
You need to tap a card,
And its to open the door to enter,
And they will also light up your deceased family member and open the door of the niche.
But of course $$
Then we explore round, old man was the guide.
AND SAW THIS!

This is a room called what shang di something.
Purpose is to put..
舍利子 !
As they havent official open this columbarium,
So the 舍利子will come when they officially open.
GOSH!
Not only the deceased can R.I.P here,
I am also R.I.P (Really.In.Peace)!
Kekekeke,
Holy Path~
So we leave,
On the car,
Because the family was talking about somethings,
And linked to boon,
GOSH!
I didnt know my dad got such good impression of boon as a good boy,
And didnt know my mum knew so much of how much boon protected me in school!
Gosh..
I really miss those days.
He is like a brother to me.
GOSH!
Emotional already.
Find someday when i am older to find him out for a drink or something.
Nows not the time..
Then back home,
Blah blah blah.
Walk with my dad to loyang point for dinner.
Super looong chats,
And no doubt he is the one that can truely judge a person.
Moral: Dont demand.

I realised why i felt something missing after being in poly for sometime.
Reason: Myself.
I found the reason why i felt different from sec and poly.
Reason: Not Myself.
I lost track of what i aim to be, how i treat people and etc.
Or basically: My Law in Life
Now i am following the crowd then to follow who i am.
Now Complained, confused and question about what others do.
I guess i should do what i think its right;
As long as i fulfilled my task,
I should not mind what response i get.
I love you,
You hate me,
At least i love you.

I can lose the whole world,
Just hope i dont lose myself.

2010-07-30T07:34:00.000-07:00

黒い感情抑えられず~
正義とすり替えてた~
Get myself back again~

*WARNING:What you are about to read is real, NO DREAM*
Kekekeke!
Woke up early to study,
Suddenly got stomache which i suspect because i drank the expire-today fresh milk, but i controlled,
The sky turned dark,
I was waiting for it to rain,
But it didnt,
And my stomach hurts,
So just go for some business,
After pooting,
It rains!
Gosh,
Imagine the sky works like your body,
Stomache = dark clouds
Poots = Rain
Ooooooh well,
Then went to school,
Had the stuuuupid retail ica,
Then off for lunch,
Found that "L" and i are the same ...
Then BLAH BLAH BLAH!
Off to mrt with grace and shuns,
Shuns and i alighted at bishan,
Bought the tickets,
Off to chill at coffee bean,
GOSH,
WE GOT NOTHING TO CHAT ALREADY!
Chat too much already!
Oh well,
Managed to survive till 5pm with some crapss.
Off for..
*JUN JUN*
INCEPTION~

*JUN JUN*
IT ISSSS SUPEEEEEEEEEEEEERB!
GOSH!
HAOOO KANN DAOOOOOOO~~~
I was waiting for what Channs said to be scary,
But it seems like i didnt get what she felt scared about.
However..
I GOT SHOCKED TWICE!
First was just the sound effect,
And gosh,
I jerked (and apparently SOME fellow saw!)
Then i looked around and the girls beside me,
Opps, Seems like no one got shocked.
Super embarassed.
Second was the train on the road,
BOOOOOOOOOOOOM!
Scared-ed me!
Then i thought Chann's part will be next,
So i prepared myself,
Whenever the film became quiet,
I just want to look away.
HAHAHAHAHA!
But the show is....!

Heres a parody for easy understanding.

Key terms:
Its about entering dreams to extract info.
In normal dreams, you die you wake up.
In sedatives & multiple dreams, you die in dream and end up in limbo.
To know whether you are in a dream or not, Spin a top:
Keeps spinning = Dreaming (dream)
Stop spinning = Awake (reality)
Kicks = Impact of gravity to force wake the person. (make the sleeping person fall off the chair)
And if doing dreams inside a dream, a person have to stay behind to protect the others' body.
5mins (reality) = 1hr (dream)

Simple example:
Shuns, grace, channs, lorrene and i.
Shuns, grace, channs & lorrene are a team.
Shuns decided to make me learn how to dig my nose which i dont know;[Objective]
Hence trying to plant an idea in me, which i never thought of before.
So they found me,
Drugged me,
And performed inception (having someone to take care of the body in reality).
So all started to dream.
Objectives:
Level 1 - Make chiu know the nose
Level 2 - Make him learn to dig
Level 3 - Make him learn to dispose the "gem".
So there they go,
Find me in the first dream (level 1; grace dream),
They kidnapped me,
Suddenly, my trained subconscious projections (humans)with guns came shooting them.
They escaped, Entered a factory, and told me about nose.
I dont know them, because they were masked.
They decided to escaped, time is running.
Zoooomed (in a van),
All except Grace(left behind) fell asleep into the next level; level 2.
In level 2 (2nd dream; channs dream),
Shuns found me,
Told me that i am in a dream, force me to remember what happened in the level 1 dream and
A bunch of bad guys are trying to stop me from learning how to dig my nose,
And said that he will be protecting me.
Protect protect protect,
He taught me how to dig,
And told me to go to the next level to know the final step of digging nose.
I followed what he said,
Went to sleep,
The rest went to sleep too,
Except channs, left behind to protect the bodies.
In level 3 (lorrene's dream),
This dream's objective is to learn to dispose the "gem".
We reached a secret base, final level to learn how to dispose.
However,
Shun's dead wife sabotage this level, [wife came from his subconscious due to past]
Wife killed me.
Then lorrene kill the wife.
For me, now dead = mission failed.
However, lorrene suggested to enter a level 4 to recuse me.
So shun entered level 4, lorrene protecting the body.
Shuns found me, made me die in level 4 to revive.
I revived, learn the final step to dispose the "gem".
Mission complete.
Now to get back,
All kicks must synchronize.
Level 1 = 1hr
Level 2 = 2hr
Level 3 = 3hr
So for multiple dreams, the second dream effects will increase from the first dream.
So although it is 1hr, 2hrs, 3hrs.
They are like time within time.
2hrs within 1hr, 3hrs within the 2hrs within the 1hr.
1hr>2hr>3hr.
So they got to perform the kick at the same time.
Pooof, all awake up.
Planting an idea in dreams, change a person in reality.
So by planting the idea of how to dig nose,
I will know how to in reality.
Hehehehehehehheheheheeheh!
Super niceeeee~
*JUN JUN*

Special thanks to Chinfang,
Because of you, there is a reduction of the no. of "damn it" i will say after the ica.

The dream is real.

2010-07-26T06:29:00.000-07:00

꺼져 줄게 잘 살아 ~
똑바로 얘기해 ~

ICTS Test.
Still alright.
Had chats,
Then off home.
Then saw ayu boarding the bus at pasir ris,
She said she was urgent!
So she alighted just now.
Chat quite abit, i alighted.
Had my dinner,
Suddenly my mum said..
They are buying a resting place for their ashes now as got discount for 2 person,
They scared next time i got no money to afford,
Now got discount and the place is nice.
Gosh,
My heart was going to tear to pieces.
Long chat with shuns, and still chatting.

When death is a gift to people,
The Ultimate Slumber.
But only when you live your life to the fullest,
You shall then worth obtaining this gift.

2010-07-22T02:59:00.001-07:00

Es.car~

Sniff Sniff,
Another stupid wake up call,
I tried to snooze my alarm,
But i cant,
Then i realised that because of yesterday,
My phone gotten some problems,
And causing those snoozing settings to be removed.
ARGHH!
My sleep.
To school,
Blah blah blah,
Chats lots lots,
Then with Seducer and Nippler,
On the stairs beside LTC,
Chat big times.
Moral of the chat:
When in a relationship,
Always refer to this famous phrase:
"It takes 2 hands to clap".
Then to MicroE Lecture,
WOOTS~
Saw the "XCUSE" boy,
Still the same pattern,
Act cool in front of girls,
OH!
And he said something stupid and the other friends were talking bad about him after he walked back to his seat.
HAHAHAHA!
And the earlier woots is not for the "XCUSE" boy,
BUT FOR.... [Drum roll]
"EUNHYUK" SAT BESIDE ME!!!
KEKEKEKE~
ANDDD!
FIRST TIME MICROE NO BREAK!!
ENDED AT 3!!!!
But this is the last lecture..
Wooow..
A dream come true.
My nose was leaking like mad,
Remove all the juice in the toilet,
And later saw "L", Commando, Key-Chain and The-girl-whose-whisper-is-the-lucifer~
Commando immediately command me to explain why am i here.
Then they left,
Went to find micro group,
At the end,
It lasted awhile only,
Rushed home,
My nose is leaking badly,
My vision is blurred and became quite giddy.
While waiting for the bus,
I nearly thought i saw linda!
The ear red red one,
But when the lady turned,
Opps.
Wanted to keep myself awake for the whole bus trip by waking MV,
However,
I MY .... MY.... I.. ME MINE.. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
Dosed off.
Then woke up at pasir ris,
Watched some mv,
And i am about to alight,
So i pressed the bell,
Then i wanted to go out,
But this guy [Poly student],
Tried to make way for me to go out like what other always do,
BUT,
He showed a I-got-laptop-and-many-things-with-me-cant-make-any-more-space feel,
So i didnt bother,
Tried to get out,
And because i saw his shoe was there,
So i tried to avoid stepping his shoe,
Causing me to lose some balance,
And he still show the I-cant-move-any-more feel.
So forget it,
Because of not stepping his shoe,
I wacked my leg against another seat,
Gosh!
Even with the music,
I think i heard BANG!
Oh well, small matter.
GUESS WHAT!
After all the trouble,
He also alighted at the same bus stop..
Gosh.
Rush home,
Removed more juice from my nose.

On those Flights of Stairs,
We Bonded.

2010-07-21T06:27:00.001-07:00

孤独　憎悪　嫉妬　不安虚無に咲いた無表情　~
何よりも思い ~

Woots,
Reached school early,
Had a lonely CHAR SHAO BAO morning,
Shuns didnt come for the lecture,
Western-Duo were mad, TO THE MAX!
Suppper funny!
Laughed until BizF is as if nothing~~~
Then had this TEP talk,
Off to MM class,
Tutor was super nice today,
Abnormally nice i mean,
But we concluded that she is nice from the start,
Just that she wants us to learn the hard way.
DURING MM,
LAUGHED AND LAUGHED AND LAUGHED!
Then off for lunch,
LAUGHED AND LAUGHED AND LAUGHED!
GOSH!
To EFMA Lec,
LAUGHED AND LAUGHED AND LAUGHED!
GOSH!
Law lec, abit, just abit reduction of laughter,
kekeke!
OFF TO THE OTHERS,
LAUGH AND LAUGH AGAIN!
THE WHOLE DAY LAUGHING!
GOSH!
Special credits to: "L", The Seducer, Seducer's Assistant
THANKS TO THIS FELLOWS,
MY DAY HAD BEEN QUITE..
NORMAL!
kekekekekeke!

Be more than just good,
Be great.

2010-07-20T15:01:00.000-07:00

거부 할 수 없는 너의 마력은 Lucifer~
거부 할 수 없는 너의 마법은 Lucifer~

Woke up by my phone's LOW BATT alert!
Gosh,
So woke up quite early today,
Off to school,
Bought a bao and milo,
Off to MicroE class,
I heard somethings,
But just unsure whether is it..
Then off to Jap class,
Woots,
Rehearse with "My group",
Class started,
The first group was super power,
Then others came up,
Then the only malay in the class was super funny,
He missed out one part,
Then he went: Ahh la.. Stressed~ restart~
Hahahaha,
Then my turn,
Gosh,
Just when we about to start,
The japanese guests came,
What great timing.
Botak didnt make it,
So he read from the notes.
I ,too, super nervous,
But just stumbled with the numbers,
The rest still fine.
Gosh,
Went up again,
To help the 2 girls with their turn,
Always get stuck with the numbers.
Then the girl said she see me want to laugh,
I scared i caused her marks to drop,
Afterall, she looks like a good student.
Finally over,
Went to find the folks,
Had lunch,
Off to Retail,
Veggie, Shell and Mad were going crazy.
OOOHHH well,
Then to BizF,
Chats,
Then to class,
Were having laughs with Banana, Grape and Seducer.
Got back BizF's project grade,
Big thanks to Fang jie and Huiyun~
Gosh,
When i know the grade,
Got a guilt in my heart,
Suddenly felt that i didnt do much at all to get this grade.
Sigh,
Then off to the mrt,
GOSH,
I REALLY HATE VISION!
Happily walking walking walking,
Me: HEY! LORRENE! YOUR FRIEND!!!! TOAD!!! [As i saw something that hopped like a frog]
I was soo happy to see a toad that i didnt realise the unusual reaction around me.
ITS LIKE!!!! A TOAD !!!! SCREAMMM OR SOMETHING PEOPLE!!!
Seducer tapped my shoulder,
Seducer: Sigh.. Its a sparrow...
I turned,
And saw wings..
Oook..
EVEN Potato-in-Sheep-skin also went:
Erm.. toad? erm... [walking further and further from the mad guy]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
Gosh!
Lucky lorrene didnt hear me,
If not, sure get toaded by her.
Bused home with ayu~

I feel so small.

Her whisper is the Lucifer~

Special adds:
Screw my internet...

2010-07-19T04:27:00.000-07:00

誰だって憶病な　彷徨えるロードランナー ~
容赦なきそのレース　勝ちを掴め！ ~

Bad day,
Bad me.
Hate those year 1,
"XCUSE ME!"
Gosh,
Trying to act macho in front of girls only.
"hey hey there..i appreciate the effort. but i actually want..."
Not necessary to meet up to do report,
Necessary to meet up for ppt rehearsal..
Trying to act leader, its alright.
At least think for the big picture.
And,
DAMN scared of trying to recognize people ANYMORE.
I was trying to find ida,
Due to my short-sightedness,
I saw some one in TEP shirt that looks like ida,
I look at the girl,
The girl looked at me,
As i walk, i continued to look at her,
And she just look at me too.
And she never react or anything,
She just look at me just the way i look at her,
So i thought i see wrongly,
I walked passed,
And i think her friend and her find me weird.
Didnt bother,
But i saw hand movements,
Her friend started showing "come here" hand signal in my direction,
I looked,
She continued,
So i thought she was calling me,
Then as i walked towards them,
She took out a keychain and waved,
I thought whats wrong,
I turned back,
She was actually calling out to a girl behind me..
I immediately do the drift, and left in embarassment.....
Settled things with ida,
Off to find the other.
Totally screwed my quiz.
Dont even understand whats going on today;
IMPORTANT FOR ICA4.
Gosh..
Damn that tutor,
Damn those Econs girls,
Damn the world,
DAMN ME!
Totally hate myself now..

Get the jap done and off to bed.

2010-07-17T06:12:00.000-07:00

Re re replay ~
Re re return ~
Re re re re reset ~

Gosh,
Sleep soo well,
Dream lots too,
But cant remember,
Only remember the previous night,
Lying on a large grassland alone in the dark,
Looking at the sky filled with stars.
GOSH!
INTO THE MOOD!
Totally screwed day,
KIT tagged those NDP 2006 NCC photos,
Nostalgic~~~~
Channs in the morning suddenly said she wanted to share with me something,
GOSH!
I thought what happened,
Then she sent me jiyoon (4minutes) pictures.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
I really live up to my reputation: Think too much King
MANY TIMES LIKE THIS ALREADY!
And i was like just started looking at Jiyoon's FB,
Just looking around, and she sent me.
Then watched Stephen Chow's movies,
GOSH!
SUPERR FUNNY!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Made my day!
Then,
Ex-RONG suddenly talk to me,
AND SAID SHE MISSED MY NONSENSE!
WOOW!
SOMEONE ACTUALLY MISSED IT!
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH!!
Someday sister!

Someday, under those grey sky,
I might hold an umbrella,
Waiting for her.

2010-07-16T06:32:00.000-07:00

絶好のゴールデンタイムこの手でつかめ ~
渾身のポーカーフェイス決めて仕掛けるよ~

WOOTS!
Enough sleeeep!
Gosh,
Felt so alive once more.
Went back to school,
Met up with shuns, ayu and jancy.
Had lunch,
And at the end,
MicroE's Project meeting was cancelled,
So ended up studying ICT while the other went down to level 1,
Heard that Changs was there,
So went down after i am done,
Chat with a no mood to study shuns,
The 2 ladies left,
We continued on at mac,
Then to yishun,
I had my dinner first before heading to Mac,
Sat there,
Chat alotss,
Trying to find a paradise in yishun but failed,
So decided to go home, since its getting late.

NEW MEMBER IN T-ARA?!
BORAM LEADER?!
Gosh,
*Close tab*
*Click "4-Minute" Tab"

Once a devil, Once an angel.
Not everything in life have to be demonic,
Not everything in life have to be angelic,
Just dont be a demon with a name tag: ANGEL.

2010-07-15T02:58:00.000-07:00

ずっと ~
追いかけて~ 追いかけて ~

Great day today!
Though i nearly died waking up today.
Gosh,
Every thing was as per normal.
Then had lunch with the clique,
Hahahahha~
Off to tutorial room with grace, shihlei and shuns.
Chat alot~
Then bid farewell,
Off to J8 with shuns,
Chill at Coffee Bean,
Gosh!
Nothing but AWESOME CHAT!
*Winks winnks*

Since i am Chiu Chu Rong for this one lifetime,
Just live like a Chiu Chu Rong then.

Just when you think you have become the light,
We are watching from the dark..

2010-07-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

I'm addicted to love ~
永遠(とわ)も運命も ~
幻でもいい ~

Happy Birthday to Grace!
Gosh,
What a week.
Lazy to say too much,
Gosh EFMA,
I think Lady Luck didnt knock on my door this time.
Oh well,
Then chat with Terril, Keith, Liting, Shuns, Grace.
Then off for lunch with shuns,
Chat lots~
Tmr still got school~
Sigh~
I am mentally alright,
But physically dead,
My eye lids are super duper heavy,
Watch MV also can doze off in the bus.
GOSH~
Gosh,
Naruto anime's graphic becoming soo bad,
Even tom and jerry has better animation.
Disappointed.

WOOTS,
Its the end,
End of Trailers,
The movie is just about to start..

2010-07-09T06:32:00.000-07:00

I believe in you~
I believe in your mind~

Woots,
KPOP IS COMING BACK!
Nearly forgotten,
The night before,
I dreamt that i was one member in U-Kiss,
As i am a newbie,
I forgotten to memorise my lyrics,
So guess what,
I wrote cue-cards [Retail presentation]
Then we started having live performance at Tampines mall,
Suddenly i heard screams,
I ran to find out whats that,
Suddenly i performed alchemy [Fullmetal Alchemist]
I saw a girl got abducted by gangsters,
I pull out my gun and aimed at the guy. [Highschool of dead]
Wooots!
So today went back to school for MM and MicroE.
BLAH BLAH BLAH!
Got alot to say,
But got many other things to do~
KEKEKEKE!
A WHILE MORE TO THE END!
LETS GO!

God is helping me,
So now is the matter of me helping myself.

Soooo~

These Guys? Or..

These Girls?

This fellow? Or..

This girl?

KPOP? OR JPOP?!

2010-07-08T06:25:00.000-07:00

너같이 좋은 사람 너같이 좋은 사람 너같이 좋은 마음 너같이 좋은 선물 ~

Gosh,
What a stunned day.
First,
Super jams at pasir ris,
Then,
Saw Heechul look-alike, in NYP somemore.
Then,
Just chill,
Never had lunch.
Then,
Played in com lab.
Then,
To Micro Lec.
Then,
To meet up with the others for retail presentation.
Then,
Was ask to be model for Ayu's group.
Then,
Joanna asked me to take one of her parts in SWOT.
Then,
I thought i will be fine, as things are very little only.

NOOOOOOOOOOW!
I went up,
Holding a microphone that i am allergic with,
Hearing an unfamiliar voice,
Projector's light are shining at me,
My body started to shiver for nothing,
While being worried for my shivers,
I started to stumble with my words,
And while trying to concentrate on the words,
My shivers turned even worst,
My words cant be pronounced properly,
"STOP, Pass to the next speaker."
Thanks Matt and Claire for telling me its alright, its over.
I now got to catch my breathe,
As my heart is beating faster than me breathing.
And heard from shuns that i just stoned there.
I just know,
I am stunned by what i just did.
Thanks shuns and the others for comforting me.
GOSH!
I DONT KNOW WHAT AM I DOING!

Though it might sound too exaggerating,
But i think the after-effect is still here.
Ok ok ,
Sleep well,
Tmr will be another fine day.

*Pat* to those who did their best for today,
*Winks* to those who are suffering the SHOCK
*Yawn* to those who need sleep to get over with it.

When minutes passed,
When speech not done,
I shivered,
I stumbled.

2010-07-07T03:36:00.000-07:00

I I My Me Mine~
I I I My Me Mine~

Woots,
NOT ENOUGH SLEEP AGAIN!
Went to school~
I BROUGHT THE WRONG BOOK!
Gosh.
Went for MM,
Talk alot about WOOOOOOO~
Then continued on~
Went for break~
GOSH!
TALKED FROM
R21 -> M18 -> NC16 -> PG -> G
HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHA!
Then EFMA -> Law.
Then i went for MicroE.
Wonder Grace saw Eunhyuk.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Gosh!
Getting seduce for around 4 minutes,
But the seduction is super addictive~
Wo Wo Wo de Wo Wo de~

When air cold,
When wind blow,
Ah-Ku sneeze,
Pi ti flow.

2010-07-06T04:01:00.001-07:00

会いたくて会いたくて震える~

Woots,
These few days,
SLEEEP SUPER WELL!
But not enough!
Gosh,
Everytime when i reached the super comfortable part of the sleep,
*Yiruma-River flows in you*
GOSH!
Woke up,
Press on, Press on..
Reached school,
The guys are funny again in MicroE.
Ahhhhh~ [Gentle]
Woah, better than Porn~
TELL ME TELL ME TELL TELL TELL TELL TELL TELL ME~ [Wonder Girls - Tell me]
Gosh funny folks.
Jap class...
My face.. I AM VERY SURE IS THE EGG WHITE! DAMNNNN!
Sigh!!!
The day...
I am quite tired to blog.
HAHAHA~
But still fine day!
Tmr 8 AGAIN!
Gosh..
Wooots nearly missed:
Yesterday was super funny!
I ask Fang jie for sweets,
She offer fisherman's friend.
I was trying to open,
But cant,
So i tear open.
LATER SELENE SAID:
HEY THIS IS ZIP-LOCK!
STUNNED!
HAHAHAHAHAH!

I need to hibernate..
Its too tiring..
Maybe a Whopper Jr. can help~
I wonder~
Kekekekek~

2010-07-05T06:52:00.000-07:00

"A lesson without pain is meaningless.
That's because you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return.
But, once you've withstood the pain and overcome it,
You will gain a heart that is stronger than everything else.
Yes. A Fullmetal heart (Hagane No Kokoro)."
- Edward Elric, Fullmetal Alchemist

LOL!
CANT STAND!
I MISSED THIS OUT EARLIER AS I FORGOTTEN!
HEART SUPER ITCHY,
Finally post,
SLEEP ALREADY~~~
Good nights~

2010-07-05T06:15:00.000-07:00

Winry: If you ever need maintence, be sure to make an appointment over the phone.
Edward: Yeah.
Edward: Appointment..
Winry: What?
Edward: Winry...
Winry: What is it? Give it to me straight.
Edward: IT'S EQUIVALENT EXCHANGE! [Blushing]
Winry: Huh?
Edward: I'll give you half of my life, so give me half of yours! [Still blushing]
Winry: Geez, why are alchemists like this? [Put her hand on her forehead]
Winry: Saying stuff like "Law of Equivalent Exchange"...
Winry: HOW STUPID CAN YOU GET?!
Edward: WHAT'D YOU SAY?!
Winry: You're a real idiot.
Winry: You want half? I'll give you all of it.
*Slience*
Winry BLUSHED~ [Realised what she just said]
Winry: A-Actually, not all of it.
Winry: Well, 90 percent... actually, maybe 80 percent... [Using fingers to count, still blushing]
Winry: Not 70 percent... how about 85 percent? [Talking to herself, still counting with fingers]
Edward stunned.
Winry: That's right, i can give you that much.
Edward burst into laughter!
Winry: WHAT?!
Winry: ED!
Edward: Ahh, sorry, sorry. [Still laughing]
Winry: ED! [Still blushing]
Edward: You're incredible, as i thought.
Edward: You overturned the Law of Equivalent Exchange like it was nothing.
Winry: What's that supposed to mean? Are you making fun of me?
Edward: I'm not. [serious]
*Edward hug Winry*
Edward: I feel much better now.
Edward: Thanks.
Edward: I'll be back.
Winry: Yep. Take care! [Accepted the hug, and hug back]
* CHOO CHOO* [There goes the train]

WOOTS!
Even such action anime,
Still got such nice happy romantic ending.
KEKEKE~
BACK TO WORK~

2010-07-05T04:45:00.000-07:00

白き優鬱~

Woots,
What a day,
Yesterday, my eye brow was sooo itchy!
Gosh,
And for a whole day was scratching until got pimple pop due to dirt.
Gosh.
Anyway,
Today was fine,
Wah, i really can depend on my mum's taste.
Hahahaha,
So had law presentation.
Then keith asked me to lend him my shirt,
So i exchanged with him.
GOSH!
From S to XS!
First time wear XS,
Woots,
Though still fit, but more of tight fit.
Then i went to the toilet with shuns,
And came back,
GENEVIE MISTOOK ME AS KEITH!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
Super funny!
HAHAHAH!
Then the day passed like nobody's business.
Now this group became super caring eh!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
*Winks Winks*
&
*Premium Winkss*
Kekekeke,
Went back home.
Got many stuffs to do,
So lazy to blog too much.
But ..
FMA: BROTHERHOOD LAST EP!!!!!!
WOOOOOOTS!
LATER~~~~~
Kekekekekek~
Great nights to all~

If you cant reach the moon,
Play among the stars.

2010-07-03T05:34:00.000-07:00

So far away we wait for the day~~

Did projects,
Tried to watch anime,
But cant, the player isnt working.
Soo i was looking through the net,
From bermuda triangle,
To strange encounters,
To Deity and God,
To Ghost.
Now i am watching Destination Truth,
It was shown on tv long long time ago during sec,
I didnt watch but i heard them from my sec folks.
Now i am watching.
GOSH!
Interesting,
AND THE BEST BUT SCARIEST IS THE
Land of dolls.

Watch if you want then, unless you watched before,
But i know ONE FELLOW suuree will watch,
Unless he watched before.
KEKEKEKEKEK!
*WINKS*

And..
My crave for ghost stories and paranormal vids is starting!
Whenever 7th month is near..

2010-07-02T05:52:00.001-07:00

Girl~ I need a girl~
뭘 해도 이쁜 몸매도 이쁜~

"I GOT IT that i still didnt get it!"
+
Many Negative, Bad, EVIL thoughts to live.
Those above, was what i thought since i told Sis Changs " i got it" till a moment ago [in the bus]
Honestly,
Till a moment ago,
I was still lying that i got it.
I intended to.. *evil stuffs*
I still cant get it, still dont understand.
I hate to admit to anything or get back to anything when i dont even understand whats up.

But,
I think i got it.
While dozing off in the bus,
I suddenly thought,
I shouldnt do this anymore [evil plans],
I realised that i am doing this,
Probably because,
I cant admit that i am inconsiderate and failed to care for people who cared for me.
I cant take it,
My bads i mean.
I realised that i had been seeking for perfection and goodness too much till i just reach a point [the peak] of not being able to accept my bads anymore.
I thought,
I was like this the past too,
But how come i am so affected now,
I realised i only started to be more aware of myself and think more when i came to poly;
While,
In sec, i dont even remember me thinking soo much.
And now, reached the peak,
Its like,
People keep calling you stupid,
Its only a matter of time,
You lose it.
Probably, like what some of the folks say,
I am trying to protect myself,
Or i should say,
Trying to cover myself!
Gosh,
I was so desperate to be good until i crap out "reasoning" [excuses] to cover up,
Unconsciously.

I want to be good,
I want to be gentlemanly,
I want to be filial,
I want to be successful,
I want to be friendly,
I want to be approachable,
I want to be.. I want to be..
I want too much already.
And when i got it, i never wish to lose them.
And this incident, i was pinpointed out that i failed at "Consideration" and "Care".
My "Lust" and "Pride" consumed me at the very moment.

So when my sins blinded me,
I became aggressive to cover up,
And cant accept anymore,
And desperately try to get out of this mess;
While still looking good.
Bro Shuns forgave me,
But i still cant accept its my fault,
I unconsciously said i need time to think.
I think i was trying to have more time to think of ways to get out of this mess.
Gosh!

So basically,
I realised its My Lust that got me unable to let go this time.
And i also realised the previous incident i experience,
Its because that i wasnt at fault in the first place that made me got out of that mess still looking good.
So i have gotten this misconception:
Hey I experience this before,
I KNOW ALOT~
I CAN HANDLE~
But in fact, it wasnt much at all.
So this time its the real stuff,
Unable to handle because its my fault,
Failed to satisfy my lust of looking good,
And i fell into the pit of darkness.
Thanks to all the Big brothers and Big sisters that still tried to hold on to me.

I think its fate,
Everytime when i have a problem,
People around me will start to say stuff related to my problem, naturally.
Then i will use those advices to solve them quietly.
Now i recalled,
A while ago, during the incident,
My dad did talk about:
If you are at fault, apologise and learn from your mistake.
At that time, i THOUGHT i already know as he said that many many times.
Blinded by my lust, i didnt think of it as a hint.
Then,
Yesterday,
I suddenly thought of the 7 deadly sins.
So i thought its nice, so i post in the blog.
Didnt think much, Its a hint on Lust and Pride.
And another case,
If i didnt tried to pretend i am fine and i got it today,
Things would get even worst.
And if Sis Changs didnt explain to Bro Shuns about what i meant,
He get the wrong idea, and this is all over.
And the lyrics i saw:
"A worsening pain is hidden behind the smile you forcefully showed.
Thats why I pretend not to notice.
I choose to restart from scratch."
I probably misunderstood the hint: "Scratch"
Its not start from scratch in friendship,
But start from scratch with myself and my thoughts.
So i guess its all fate.
Fated for things to not getting worse,
Fated for me not to fall into Lust and become a terrible and rotten person,
Fated for all this love and care to not end.

Now i am confident to say,
This is the last page,
I saw THE END.

My growth,
I guess its just started,
May the light guide me to maturity.

I shall hold on to you guys,
Till i am able to stand on my own,
My Big Brothers And Sisters.

2010-07-01T04:31:00.001-07:00

Super funny!

2010-07-01T04:15:00.001-07:00

I dont mind spending everyday~
Out on your corner in the pouring rain~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

I finally got it,
Thanks to Changs~
I shall kill Chiu Chu Rong,
Rock the world with CCR.
And since i found a new talent: Selfish
I thought it was all bad to the environment,
But i realise one thing,
You need not be selfish to others,
Why not be selfish to yourself?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
Be selfish to yourself, FOR WORLD PEACE!
Wooots.
And i nearly fell off the steps of the bus,
Just because this uncle trying to act as though he wanted to stand at the lower platform,
I made way for him to see!
And nearly died.
Death nearly caught me!
KEKEKEKEKE!
And the GazettE rock my headaches away!
Weeeeee~

My Lust,
My Greed,
My Sloth,
My Pride,
My Envy,
My Gluttony,
My Wrath,
MY SINS.

2010-06-30T06:40:00.000-07:00

あぁ　カミサマお願い~

NOTE: Once again, probably will affect any of you, so just forget it after reading, because i myself dont know what am i doing.
GOD DAMN IT!
I want to run away from this world.
MY HEAD IS GOING TO CRACK!
Its haunting me,
I want to be alone,
Alone..
Things are getting stupid,
And yet,
I dont know what am i troubled with.
My head is aching..
I want to run away..
Need Bam-Bam genre songs,
But in Jap, so i try The GazettE.
See how it goes..
Its stupid, really stupid..
Its CHILDISH, KIDDISH!
I think if i tell my parents about it,
They would probably say: Kidss.
If i tell my other friends about it,
They would probably say: LAME! CHILDISH! GET A LIFE!
My bad side told me:
"Hey, are you going to shit around, wasting your god damn time on this kind of shits?
Come on, these stuffs dont help at all in life! While you are being troubled over such trivial stuffs, others around are laughing their pants off for your stupidity and retardedness! Come on, get past this shit and get on with life, you piece of shit!"
My good side told me:
"Hey, he forgave you, but what are you troubled with?! Now you are brain-dead? Gosh, a friend is involved, dude! You cant just let things be like this! Think and think until you get it! Solutions and preventions so you wont hurt someone again! You dont worth anything until you get the answer, so you better think hard."
I dont even know what i am doing right now.
I think i lost everything in me,
Soul, thoughts, feelings, emotions, rights & wrongs.
Chiu chu rong, please come back!

After a while of bambam,
My headache got slightly better.

I am still thinking selfishly,
I know its wrong,
But still, haunting my mind.
This is the first time i am thinking so selfishly,
Probably, being selfish is my true nature?
Let go, let go..
So i am that shitty in the first place that
To solve someone's troubles, the first best choice is to let go of me.
Gosh, I am really that bad a person.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
I guess i am that bad.

Argh, the more i type,
The more i feel nostalgic.

I think i am suffering from split mental personality.
I think, i shall wait for a time,
A time to change forever.
I dont know why, but i start to think that i am selfish.

Its only one page left, but i still dont see THE END.

2010-06-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

2010-06-29T05:23:00.000-07:00

だから僕らさよなら~

NOTE: Whatever its written, if you get angry/mistaken/sad/happy/affected/confused/ETC, you are recommended to forget it as its what my mind is trying to express itself; of course without thinking much for others. My apologies.

Somewhat lost,
But since its my bads,
So wont be affecting others.
But i found this phrase that fits one of my thoughts,
"無理な笑顔の裏伸びた影を匿う
だから気づかぬように再生を選ぶ"
Or i should say:
"A worsening pain is hidden behind the smile you forcefully showed.
Thats why I pretend not to notice.
I choose to restart from scratch."
Accidentally saw, and
Gosh, it fits.
The phrase might sound another way,
So it depends on how you want to read it.
Hmm.
For now.

Body is very hot these few days,
Feel as though i might fall sick anytime.
Lots of stuff undone, Lots of thoughts not fixed.
But shall press on till the major holiday.
I didnt think much last holiday,
I guess thinking is necessary for this coming one,
As i found out more about myself from the folks.
"Hey you are nice, but you hurt."
Such contradiction i have done to people.
A good, yet a bad.
I am sure that i have lost myself.
And i am still thinking that,
"Everything is fine? What went wrong?"
Maybe i have been given too much love, care and concern.
Taking for granted, they say.
But still, i recalled always thinking for others.
So was i just thinking or did i did something about it?
My whole mind is screwed.
Here i am thinking that i made it, i done it.
There i hear logical feedbacks for not making it and not doing it.
So what have i been doing?
Have i cared? Have i loved? Have i concerned?
I thought i was?
Hmm.

I hoped i didnt read this story before,
Because it felt so nostalgic.
I scared the ending will be the same,
And my mind kept telling me its the same.
I know its not, i felt that its not,
But yet,
The story goes on in that direction,
Maybe with more details?
Maybe..
The moral of the story is..
I am not worth having ..

Memories of the past,
Though it isnt long,
Just 17+ Years.
Made me feel that,
Its probably my fate.
I lose the things i thought i will never lose,
I was bless with the things i thought i will surely lose.
And things i meant: Friends.
Flashbacks assured that its true.

But really appreciated what heshun had done,
Told me my bads,
Yet feeling sorry for what he said,
And yet thinking that its his fault.
So just be what you are.
Its my growing stage,
Whats that got to do with you and you are behaving like this for what?
Gosh.
Its like seeing someone fell down and you felt pain,
I mean,
Why are you feeling the pain?
Its the duty of the someone to learn how to stand up again.
Why are you showing signs that you need to learn how to stand up,
When you are already standing?
Please leave the fallen alone,
They will never learn if they dont feel the pain,
They will never come back if they dont learn to stand up again.

I dont know how to be a friend, i guess.
Maybe i shouldnt have friends?
But dad said before that i should make more friends.
And yet,
Why some i refered as friends, dont regard me as friends,
And some seems to be happy to be my friend?
The same me, the same way of talking, everything the same,
And yet, some called me "friend" and some dont.
I really appreciate those sec mates who still treat me as some good friends,
Even though i hurt them before,
With me knowing it.
Thank you for treating me as your friend.

But typing so much about friends,
If its the me before "that incident",
My heart would have turned numbed and pain.
But now..
I want everyone to be happy, smile, laugh like theres no tomorrow,
And now,
I dont know what i am troubled with?
Have i "died"?
I guess this time will be solved in a different way.
I cant think properly, with so many things to do in reality.
And i cant think of a solution to solve this ache.
I shall let my mind wander around~
When its "dinner-time", it will surely be back, one day.
When i understand how to be a friend,
I shall make friends again.
I didnt know i need to understand so much to make friend.
Up till now,
For poly mates,
Despite my retardedness, stupidity, immaturity, lameness, lazyness, hurtings,
You guys still gave me a smile.
Even if they are fake,
I thank you for being nice to me.

This word "Mature" still isnt in my dictionary, yet.

NOTE: Whatever its written, if you get angry/mistaken/sad/happy/affected/confused/ETC, you are recommended to forget it as its what my mind is trying to convey; of course without thinking much for others. My apologies.

The Last Lie I Made Was A White Lie;
and its true.